HELPLESS

Have you ever felt so helpless like there is no hope, it's like everyone thinks you have this perfect life and everything is gravy, but inside you are falling apart, well guess what welcome to my life, it's like for every two thingsthat go right there is another three things that go horribly wrong. Don't gety me wrong I was not always this crazy emotional basket case, but with time comes more resposibilities, and with a harsh life comes tough lessons, we can't all remain sweet and innocent forever.

For the most part I try to look on the bright side and stay positive but it can be extremely hard with all the negativity out there whether it's from the news or just from the people around you.Sometimes I sit and remember the girl with the positve attitude who thought everything would happen for her in time, her naiveness still urkes me butwhat can you do but grow up and face the harsh realities that is ones life.

I must admit I have gooten more negative as the years have passed but with the help of my sister, my crazy niece and a loving spouse I will muddle my way through this maze and hopefully find my salvation on the other side.

WHAT RECESSION

I was fortunate enough to attend a party last night with my sister and my cousin and by the looks of everything, from the stretch limo outside the club to the many creative outfits worn by the ladies and gentlemen present, it is very clear to me that some people are not taking this recession thing very seriously, because why then would you go to a local Jamaican party in Queens, New York in a custom made outfit.

So next time I am feeling the urge to go to a party on a saturday night, I will certainly rethink the whole thing, after all I am one of the many few who are actually planning for the future.

FAMILY

Is is ok to not like about half the people in one's family, be real most family members can and are very annoying so why should I talk to or even communicate with them they only call you when they need something anyway, and they don't even try to sugar coat it no call to say hello, no how are you and the family just gimme, gimme, gimme, well it's recession time now so there is nothing more to give.