Finaly after many months of planning, saving, more planning and even more saving I have purchased a new car, abeautiful 2009 Honda Civic white. I think that I might be in love with a car for the first time in my life, pathetic I know but I have been drivng around New york for the last couple of years in gas guzzlers, muffler bangers and all around crappy cars, all the while avoiding the costs of purchasing a new automoble. Now finally after alot of ribbing and snide comments from my sister and Suzy I decided that it was time. Even thou I am happy with this new development, the hole in my pocket is still protesting. So what is the next step in my master plan to world domination. Save. save and more saving. And what am I saving towards you might ask, oh well just a little thing called my own condo. I purchased myself a mega million ticket today, so who knows maybe I could be siting on 25 million big ones as I sit here at my desk. So good luck to me and all my fellow dreamers. Remember dream big.

I just looked into myself and realized that I spend so much of my time thinking about what I do not have, that I am forgetting what I do have in my life.

This is a problem that is not only plaguing me but the rest of society as well.Stressing about getting that new fancier car and we fail to apreciate the little car that we do have, taking us to work on a daily basis, providing heat in the winter and air condition in the hot summer months.

       There is no problem trying to achieve more in life, reaching for the stars until you feel like your hands are about to pop out of their socket. For me it is almost like an obsession, to be more , do more, achieve more.So much so that lately I have lost my way, strayed from my path. I have been working so hard the last few months that I have bypassed my bed and moved to sleeping on my couch because by the time I get home jump in the shower and sit at my computer for 3-4 hours, I am so exhausted that I just crash on the sofa, only to awaken at 6am the to start the process all over again.

         I have come to realize that my chase for the perfect life, is getting in the way of me spending quality time with my friends and family. The people that love and support me no matter what.

So starting today, I vow to spend less time searching for perfection and unattainable happiness and focuscing more of my energy on my loving family and friends.

RACISM OR STUPIDITY

Recently my sister got into an altercation with a coworker. My sister is of African desent aand this person was of the white variety.
In a heated argument she called my sister a black monkey, and promptly told her that she does not belong "here".

Personally I have never been the victim of any sort of racial profiling,but I got so heated when my sister was replaying the whole sordid mess for me and my friend Suzy. Understandably so, my sister let her have it with guns blazing, tellng her if she so hates peope of color maybe New York with its vast immigraton population is not the best place to be living.

I am still extremely upset about the entire incident and so hurt, that I cannot help feeling that  maybe people that I meet are judging me by the color of my skin and not who I am as a person.
Friends have told me that I am a little naive burying my head in the sand about this whole racism issue, because for me I always thought that since I am not seeing it first hand and it is not happening to me, it does not exist. I guess the saying "out of sight, out of mind" is true.
Now with this incident so close to home, I am forced to examine this most pressing issue plauging out society today,  and I have come to realize that I do get looked at differently depending on where I am and who I am with.
Whenever I hang out with my friend Suzy who just happens to be white we get little side glances sometimes.
For me I don't see color, whether you are black, white orange or purple is of no concern to me. What is important is what yo have in your heart.

My sister informed me yesterday that her coworker recently quit. I guess that means racists are not only stupid, but they are quitters as well.